My first contribution in my journal

2006-04-29T20:23:54Z

I'm so tired today. I don't know if it is a side effect or not. Because I was really tired before I went on my anti-depp medicines too (Prozac and Edronax). I'm really happy if I get energized and that has happened like two times. Have taken Prozac for a month and the other one for like one week. Well I hope I get better soon and will feel better. A problem I feel I have is that I find it hard getting any good friends. It seems there isn't any left for me or it is just bad luck. I can feel it is hard connecting with friends, because I just feel like hiding myself in my bed. But I really can't go on like this anymore. I had enough! I really want to get better, I am tired of feeling this lonesome. All I wish is having a good friend to talk to. I have met some bad people and have cut them out of my life recently. So right now I feel pretty lonely and don't have anyone to talk to. I think that is why I'm feeling depressed. I think that I am too nice and that's why people take advantage of me and I hate that. But I'm getting better at recognizing bad people who aren't good for me. I have learned that I have to surround myself with positive people and not the negative ones that just make you feel miserable. It really would be nice having a bunch of good friends. Then I wouldn't get so bored all the time and wouldn't move around so much. I just don't feel at home anywhere. I don't know what I want to do. I'm so confused so I figured out that I will have to save a planeticket to Hawaii and spend time with my Dad for a while. I really don't feel like leaving my boyfriend behind in Sweden, I will just get so much more depressed if I had to do that. He's the most important thing to me.

/lonsome girl in her 20's

elfistar

My first contribution in my journal